2nd Jan 2014.. Years pass way in just a matter of time and so does the days.. It was since 10th December 2013, I started the count down of the end of the year and yes, a bit of rewind makes me feel that a year has just passed away so quickly.. The time and those 365 days just flew away somewhere but the life remains the same as it is.. Is it? No! Obviously not! Each and every second is reducing my life span and reducing my days to achieve my goal and it seems I am still standing on the same even ground and searching for the same gate...
Its true that I'm still there where I was but its not completely true as may be I have achieved a lot, may be some respect, may have got some new fiends and obviously lost something which I shouldn't have (I don't exactly remember :p). Life goes on like this.. Searching for opportunities, felt jealous, felt proud sometimes, anger, sadness etc etc.. a mixed feeling though.. Rewinding some three years back when I've just left the school or left Farakka, it seems lot that has changed, from my looks to my behavior. I don't exactly feel the change but I feel myself confident enough to face the real world.
While sitting by the window today, I just had a rewind back. The whole morning, I was in no touch with the external world and yes, I was not using the internet nor was in to any music.. I had an interaction with my past and I found myself, I found the change, I got to see the list of my character and I was confused. But even found something very interesting, the journey from a dream land to the real world, and yes I find it better to be in a real world as in the dream land, I was weak and had no ability to fight against anything which I felt to be wrong but in the real world, I got the ability as well as the strength. I've got all powers to fight against. I went back to my past and had a sneak peak to the things I have been wronged with, I felt to chalk out the strategy but... it was quiet late enough... and I can't have e a real rewind!! Even I got the focus on myself, my misdeed and my deeds which have made me suffer the pain of Guilt and yes I still burn in the fire of such guilt. And these are going to live with me till my death....
Oh shit!!! I was day dreaming... This happens when you are sick!!!!
Its true that I'm still there where I was but its not completely true as may be I have achieved a lot, may be some respect, may have got some new fiends and obviously lost something which I shouldn't have (I don't exactly remember :p). Life goes on like this.. Searching for opportunities, felt jealous, felt proud sometimes, anger, sadness etc etc.. a mixed feeling though.. Rewinding some three years back when I've just left the school or left Farakka, it seems lot that has changed, from my looks to my behavior. I don't exactly feel the change but I feel myself confident enough to face the real world.
While sitting by the window today, I just had a rewind back. The whole morning, I was in no touch with the external world and yes, I was not using the internet nor was in to any music.. I had an interaction with my past and I found myself, I found the change, I got to see the list of my character and I was confused. But even found something very interesting, the journey from a dream land to the real world, and yes I find it better to be in a real world as in the dream land, I was weak and had no ability to fight against anything which I felt to be wrong but in the real world, I got the ability as well as the strength. I've got all powers to fight against. I went back to my past and had a sneak peak to the things I have been wronged with, I felt to chalk out the strategy but... it was quiet late enough... and I can't have e a real rewind!! Even I got the focus on myself, my misdeed and my deeds which have made me suffer the pain of Guilt and yes I still burn in the fire of such guilt. And these are going to live with me till my death....
Oh shit!!! I was day dreaming... This happens when you are sick!!!!
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